Brave Old World…

I haven’t posted anything in a couple weeks but for very good reasons – houseguests and weekend get-aways to Belfast and Copenhagen. The highlight of my visit to Belfast was seeing the new Titanic Experience – a world class museum that alone made the trip worth it.

As I walked through the various exhibits, I started thinking about the people of that time and before it who made the choice to leave their homeland and try to make a life elsewhere, often an ocean away. Those people would be defined as immigrants (a person who leaves one country in order to settle permanently in another) but technically, they were also expats (one who takes up residency in a foreign country).

Unfortunately, the word “immigrant” has taken on an almost negative connotation in the conversations of today, while the term “expat” seems to have a bit more romance and even glamour attached to it.  But the basic difference, by virtue of their definitions, is just permanence. An immigrant relocates with permanent intent, while expats… well, I can attest to the fact that a lot of us don’t like to look too far into the future and think about where we might end up.

It’s the permanence of the immigrant experience that really got me thinking.  Even later than the time of the Titanic, when a person or a family made the decision to move from somewhere like Europe to somewhere like America, they made it knowing they were leaving behind everything and everyone they knew.  There was a very good chance they would never see their homeland or the people they were leaving behind again.  And yes, the decision to leave was often in pursuit of a better life, of opportunities that would be impossible where they were, but still, the gravity of such a permanent decision is not lost on me and perhaps that is because, as an expat, I have the slightest of slight ideas of what that might have felt like.

But, not really.

Not really because I chose to move to Europe not because my life in America was so bad, but because I simply wanted to experience living here.  Not really because I had an amazing job I was fairly certain I would love waiting for me in Dublin.  Not really because I have wonderful inventions like email and Skype that make it easy to talk to friends and family back home, everyday if I want.  And not really because air travel makes it possible for me to visit my “homeland” at least twice a year.

On many, many occasions when I have told people how I moved to Dublin without ever having visited before and without knowing anybody, they call me brave.  I know they don’t mean brave like a soldier or a firefighter, but still, brave.  And I get it.  Not everyone could do what I did – it took a certain amount of guts.

But when I was newly in Dublin and freaking out to my sister (on a daily basis) that maybe I’d made a mistake and what the hell was I going to do, she broke it down for me: “Shannon, worse case scenario, you come home.”  She was right.  And the day she said that to me was the day I really started to open myself up to this new life I’d chosen – because I knew I had a home to return to if this ended up not being the right choice for me.

So, gutsy, ballsy, maybe even a bit crazy – yes, I was definitely those things.  But brave? Most definitely not.  Especially not compared to those who did it before me and who’s worse case scenario was decidedly less reassuring.

 

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8 thoughts on “Brave Old World…

  1. Hi: Add YOUNG to gutsy, ballsy and I believe brave belongs there as well. Follow your dreams while young. And I agree, you have a fsmily to go home to..a wonderful, supportive family. Enjoy your adventure.

  2. it’s true – there are few choices that are truly permanent. you can always just…make another choice to do something different. i’m SO happy for you that you took that leap. even happier that it seems to be paying off for you in spades, my friend. 🙂

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